eclipsedbyme

i have this tendency to think about things a lot. a real lot lot. and i have this current thing that i keep thinking about. and i wanna do something about it. but i don’t know what to do or if it’s a good thing to do or what it will bring. and all i really want is to be genuinely sorry and be really honest even tho it makes me look like a complete jackass. i wish i could just let this person in my head to feel what i want them to understand. because i just want to put it behind me. i wonder if it’s already been put behind her… and bringing it up will only make it worse. i don’t want to make it worse for her. how do you decide what to do? i wish someone could help me decide what to do… i need to stop thinking for a while.