interest lost
i have no interest in this day job shit that i have. well, wait, i have interest in the monday through friday schedule and the salary, but what does that get me? pure unhappiness on a daily basis. then the other job, fun, cool people, i can be myself… but random schedule, less money, but but but. fucking stupid life. what is the point? i really just wanna stay home and do things that make me feel good. i guess some people would say that makes me selfish or something. but i wanna know what they think the purpose of life is? i mean, is it be work for the man, make money to pay more money to that man so that you can have an over expensive car that needs over expensive fuel every week? not in my eyes. life is about relationships. about love, about experiencing. and everything that i’m doing right now, when i’m away form my little corner of life, goes against everything i think that life is. stupid life. *kicks something and pouts*
so do i choose happiness over money? doesn’t money lead to happiness? can you be happy if you can’t afford to live? can you work a job for money and get beyond the miserableness of it? wtf is wrong with the world?
on another note, i’m doing a new layout for this site in my head. if i can ever get the time to hook up with my sys and make it happen you might see it.